我的錯

I don't know when the world got so twisted.
Everything got turned upside down.
But something tells me the whole thing was my fault.
Everyone keeps telling me I need to change.
Something needs to get better.
But no one will tell me what it is.
Somehow everytime the world gets further out of control.
I've done something else against the rules.
Broken another hidden code that no one told me about.
Just by being in the certain place I happen to be in.
I've gone wrong, gone astray.
Fallen short of someone's expectations.
And with that I've lost a lot of expectations for myself.
In a world so screwed up it's just easier to not care.
To forget that I was ever supposed to be something.
I was never meant to be someone worth being.
And these thoughts are only further brought to light.
Everytime someone reminds me that I'm doing it wrong.
I'm always doing it wrong.
Even when I don't know what it is.
Everyone's always teaching me backwards.
Watching me do everything without thinking about it.
Then telling me how much I've screwed it up.
But I didn't even know I was doing it.
So everyday I'm further reminded that I've failed.
At something I don't remember trying to do.
And by failing at it all, I've failed at life.
Because now the world is broken, and it's my fault somehow.
They all know I broke it.
Eventhough I don't remember doing it.